Friday, June 26, 2009
Coffee Break
I'm having coffee (mostly decaf) and just finished breakfast. The dogs are sprawled on the floor, out cold, and E is still sleeping. It's been 5 hours, and I woke up naturally for the first time in probably a week.
Daily I go back and forth between being completely overwhelmed by the responsibilities of mothering an infant, and feeling so privileged and joyful to care for her, and that I have it half way under control. It usually depends greatly on whether I've 1) had enough sleep, 2) had a meal recently, and 3) had any form of quiet time; if any of those are in the negative, it's not a good day.
Well, it was a short-lived coffee break, but it was better than nothing. Sounds like E is awake and probably has a diaper to take care of before the first marathon feeding session of the day.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Two Weeks
Here she is posing like a glamor girl.
She also slept pretty much through the night last night--from 1 until 8 AM. In fact, I had to wake her up this morning. After I took a shower, had a quiet time, and ate breakfast. Amazing. Had we not prayed over her sleep, I'm sure she wouldn't have left us peacefully alone for so long.
E is stirring from her nap now, and I am almost done eating lunch.
I kind of can't wait for her to get up so I can feed her again, because I'm watching The Sound of Music while I feed her, and I'd forgotten how much fun that movie is. I did watch a whole bunch of it while she was not eating, but I am figuring that's almost as restful as a nap, so it's completely justifiable.
Camp of Champions Mississippi started this week, and it has been especially on my heart this year. Maybe it's because I'm at home this summer and not distracted by work. They're almost done playing kickball and will head to the cafeteria in just a few minutes. I have that schedule so memorized....
Sam was saying last night how the only thing he doesn't really like about camp is the full week of sleep deprivation, but since now our lives run on about as much sleep as what we got at camp, we'd probably do far better than we ever had. In fact, if we slept for 6 hours straight, we may actually be more rested than at home.
Phone call... I'm off.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Everyday miracles
Here are a few examples of heavenly intervention when nothing we could do would be sufficient:
On our 2nd day home from the hospital, Elizabeth had not had a bowel movement in almost 24 hours. Possibly over, but we couldn't remember. So we prayed. Sam was holding her about an hour later when he heard what sounded "like a gunshot" coming from her tush. There it was.
We've been having some difficulty with her latching on to nurse, and without going into all of it, one evening we were sitting there struggling, and Sam felt led to command her to latch on. Next thing we knew, she was nursing happily. It's still not smooth sailing in this regard, but we're still working on it and she's doing just fine.
With the arrival of a daughter we are also very aware of how not in control of our lives we actually are, and how the only way to live is with our lives thrown on the mercy and faithfulness of God.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
This post is for Erin O
I did manage to eat breakfast, and I am trying to eat lunch. I have washed my face and I did brush my teeth once today. I have let the dogs out 2 or 3 times each. I got the mail. I checked facebook about 5 times. I got the bath mat that is finally dry out of the dryer and put it on the bathroom floor.
E is sitting in her rocking seat next to me, with a diaper that I know is dirty, but I really want to finish eating my lunch before starting the next round of feeding/changing/napping.
Sam should be home from work soon, and then he will play with E while I take a shower, which may be the highlight of my day.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Birth Story (with all the gory details)
On Monday I went in for my scheduled induction, at around 6:30 AM. It took a little while to fill out paperwork and get settled in, so it was about 8:30 or 9 before the induction actually started.
They installed a foley catheter into the cervix to dilate it (I arrived at about 1.5 cm and about 50% effaced, just like I'd been at my last checkup), and I got an IV for the Penicillin (Group B Strep positive) and to get the Pitocen going. Then we settled in expecting a long day. I started feeling the contractions as fairly strong and uncomfortable by 10 or 11, but not bad. My family came in to visit, and I was able to talk to them, which actually distracted me pretty well.
When we got to the hospital, we prayed that every contraction would accomplish something, and God definitely heard my prayer! We went into this with the mindset that we don't know what will happen, or how well I'll tolerate the pain, so we were open to whatever pain management we felt was necessary, but would see how it went without any intervention, and take it from there.
We sent my parents out around 11:30 so I could get up to go to the restroom without their having to see my behind through my beautiful hospital gown. As I got up, we discovered that my water had broken, or it broke just as I was moving off the bed. Once that happened, obviously the catheter had done its job, so I was at least 3-4 cm dilated by this time.
Because my water had broken, we asked if they could decrease the Pitocen dosage and they said it was a possibility once we could tell the contractions were steady and regular. Around noon they did halve the Pit dosage. The contractions were getting to the point that I had to breathe and really concentrate through them.
I labored mostly on the bed, on one side or the other; at one point I got on the birth ball (which didn't help a whole lot), and another time I got on all fours on the bed, which was pretty good for a while until I got pretty tired.At around 3:30 I asked to try to labor in the tub, since it was an option (it even had jets, which I probably would have enjoyed a whole lot more had I not been in labor). In order to do that, I would have to not be hooked to an IV, so because my contractions were still going strong, we asked if we could take off the Pitocen altogether, and they said it was fine, but if they stopped, we'd go back to it. It took quite a while for the tub to fill up, and once I got in, it was pretty nice, but the contractions there killed, since I had to be on my back to be in the water enough to do any good. So that didn't last very long.
When I got back into the bed, my midwife (who was awesome in every way - I am so grateful for the entire staff who worked with us while we were there) measured me, and I was at 5 cm and 90%! Things were happening. At that point, I was ready to ask for the epidural, but my husband (who was also wonderful through the whole process) suggested I try an IV drug first, to take the edge off the peak of the contractions. I was up for that, and I'd see how it goes, and if it didn't cut it for me, then I could go to the epi.
Somewhere around that time one of my best friends came in to the room to see how we were doing. We hadn't planned on her being with us, but it turned out to be so wonderful that she came, because she was able to help and offer support and take pictures at the end.
The IV drug (Nubain?) didn't appear to take the edge off, because they kept coming strong and hard. I was just taking deep breaths and slowly exhaling/moaning/sighing as my mode of trying to live through the contractions. In each breath I was also praying out in the Spirit, which helped me stay calm and I'm sure helped in more ways than that. But it was still labor, so I asked for the epidural. They'd have to check my progress first, and so we waited for the midwife to come back from down the hall where she had another delivery (we were neck and neck the whole time). At some point they asked me if I was beginning to feel the urge to push, and I said that I was trying to keep a BM in. The nurse looked at me with big eyes and called the midwife in faster. When she checked me, I was complete, and ready to push!
Apparently the reason that the IV narcotic drug didn't seem to be working is that I was in transition the whole time, so the "hard" contractions I was feeling were really my majorly intense contractions, and they felt about the same as they had before! I didn't get an epidural, of course, since the worst was already pretty much past.
I pushed and pushed for about an hour. It surprised us at how long we were stuck at the crowning phase. Her head
Finally at 6:33, they told me to bring my hands down there; they hadn't told me why, so I did, and all of a sudden, there was a slimy, squishy mass in my hands - my baby!
She was 7 lbs 13 oz, measuring 20.5 inches; scored 8 and 9 on her Apgar score, and was flailing her arms straight out of the womb. She had one hand raised right next to her head as she came out, which contributed to my getting 2 tears (a 2nd degree in the back, and a 1st degree in the front) that had to be stitched up. So my labor was actually only about 9-1/2 hours long, and I didn't have an epidural. We are so aware of the kindness and faithfulness of our God to help and answer our prayers.
We got home on Wednesday afternoon, and have been adjusting to our new life. We are completely in love with her, and can't go more than 20 minutes without saying, "she's so beautiful." She is a happy baby, who has her nights and days mixed up... but we still love her.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Elizabeth Hosanna
We are in love...
Born 6/8
Weighing 7 lb 13 oz
Measuring 20.5"
Completely adorable and perfect in every way.
Friday, June 5, 2009
40 weeks, 5 days, and counting
Jessa wants to go outside, but she was just out an hour ago, and can't possibly need to go out again. She will go to my parents' house whenever we make our run to the hospital. We will probably take her tonight or tomorrow anyways, just because we know we will need to take her soon enough, and it will be so much simpler if she's already dropped off, than to make a stop "on the way".
As the official update, at my appointment yesterday I was 1.5 cm dilated (which is an improvement), still only about half-way effaced, but her head had moved down yet another cm to be at -1 station. So in 4 days I had made some progress, thank the Lord! While they were in there, they stripped my membranes, which did get me going with some more frequent, but still not painful, contractions and a little bit of minor spotting. I've taken to commanding my cervix to soften in Jesus' name, because if anybody can do anything about it, He can.
Barring a trip to the hospital this weekend, Monday at 5 AM, I have instructions to call Labor & Delivery and come in for an induction at 6 (or whenever they say they'll have room for me). Our bags are packed and they are actually already in the truck, with the installed car seat. Along with the case of Gatorade that I got at Costco a couple of days ago and never bothered to get out of the truck.
Supposedly the same thing that the moon does to the oceans when it's full, it also does to a woman's bag of waters when they're ready to go into labor, so perhaps this Sunday, which happens to be a full moon, we'll see some action. Either way, we will be holding our little girl by the end of Monday. I can't think of a better way to start the summer!
Just for fun, here are a couple pictures of Sam and I as babies, which I just received and/or scanned:
Thursday, June 4, 2009
This is the day, this is the day...
So I'm off to see the doctor again and see if anything's happening, and see if this is 'the day' that our little one decides to make her appearance!
Keeping myself busy
In bloom today:
Homemade
Egg McMuffins for breakfast:
I made up 6 of these in advance for breakfasts to send with Sam on his way to work.
They turned out surprisingly well, and I still have 4 in the freezer. I will have to make a habit of preparing these this summer, because it is so much more economical, and it's not hard at all!
Monday, June 1, 2009
40 weeks and counting
Surprisingly, I'm actually mostly fine with still being pregnant. Part of it may be that I'm more able to be prepared, because we have had all of these 'extra' days. We have a fairly clean house. The bag is (finally) packed. Sarah has instructions for dog/cat/house-sitting whenever we take off for the hospital. I have all the parts to assemble breakfast burritos and breakfast sandwiches to make ahead and freeze for Sam to take to work in the mornings. Besides making breakfasts for the next few weeks, one of my goals for tomorrow is to do my nails and redo my toenails. It's fun to have the opportunity to do somewhat unnecessary things.
That reminds me that I will still have to make Sam's lunch for tomorrow. I don't mind doing it, but at the end of the day when my feet are already swollen (seriously they're about as wide at my ankles as my calves are in the middle), taking the time to do it is just not something I enjoy. And the poor guy is so tired of sandwiches already.
Anyways, here is a picture of myself and 2 other prego friends yesterday afternoon at the church-wide picnic/graduation party (I'm in the middle):
